I'm going to put into action what my ex and I talked about today.

I'm making a list of all the things worth living for and things to look forward to.

1. Finding a partner that doesn't leave me
2. True love
3. A new family
4. Howling cow ice cream by myself
5. Howling cow ice cream with friends
6. Long walks on the beach
7. Long walks in parks just as the sun sets
8. Bats chirping
9. Seeing my old home again
10. Sitting by a creek
11. Fishing with my fresh water rod
12. Fishing with my salt water rod
13. Catching a Spanish mackerel 
14. Cuddling with my partner in person
15. Sex...real, passionate, and in person
16. Finding a partner that I trust enough to have sex with
17. Playing guitar...learning it and to sing while playing
18. To propose with a song played on guitar
19. To find a partner I can actually feel comfortable and ready to propose to
20. Get married
21. Travel the world
22. Photograph the world
23. Experience new cultures 
24. Try new foods
25. Visit england
26. Go back to the everglades
27. See Grey wolves in the wild
28. See a great horned owl in the wild
29. See an eastern diamond back in the wild
30. Finish book 1
31. Finish book 2
32. Finish book 3
33. Get published
34. Write poetry for her
35. Kiss her goodnight
36. Fall asleep to the sound of her breathing
37. Hold her while I sleep
38. Make fun of each other's bed head
39. Make her breakfast in bed
40. Cook for her
41. Kiss in a thunderstorm
42. Kiss while it snows
43. Make a snow fort and have a snowball fight
44. Learn a hobby together
45. Buy a house 
46. Buy a house together
47. Maybe have a kid? A daughter?
48. Have a cat
49. Snakes.
50. Lizards
51. Learn to handle venomous reptiles
52. Win a big photo contest
53. Photograph a tornado?
54. Go storm chasing at least once
55. Get my EMT license
56. Get a good job
57. Be proud of myself
58. Love my friends
59. Find friends I can and do truly love
60. Make a best friend other than my partner
61. Cook a susrpise meal for my family
62. Learn to cook as well as my mom does
63. Be as hard working as my dad
64. Be as good a son as my sisters are daughters
65. Be as badass as Lani
66. As happy as Rachel
67. Finish college with B.S.
68. Make a positive impact on the world
69. Make a difference in a stranger's life
70. Learn to do some wood working/metal working
71. Make something for my partner out of wood or metal
72. Get a cool ring
73. Get her a unique engagement ring
74. Have a good wedding
75. Be myself
76. Find my niche in life
77. Not be famous, but be well known for who I am, even if it's only in my community
78. Be a good person
79. Be honest
80. Be able to look my kid self in the eyes and know that he would want to be me when he grows up
81. Have a life that I believe is worth all the pain
82. Meet someone who makes life worth all the bad times
83. Sex in uniform?
84. Get fit
85. Look good
86. Exercise regularly
87. Be eligible to apply to police/military/FBI
88. Never stop learning
89. Never give up
90. Never give in