times like these remind me of how alone i really am sometimes. i had one of my very lucid nightmares that only happen once or twice every few months but they always freak me out and usually are a result of suppressed thoughts and feelings etc or feel like some kind of warning.

usually, i would go to my s/o or best friend or close friend etc and just talk to them about it, but i realized i didnt have anyone i was close to like that.

it really does suck, trying to claw your way back up from your problems, at times.

i know it was for the best, but knowing i made the right choice doesnt make living with the consequences any easier.

there are some times in life that you just want a god damn bestfriend to tell shit to when you cant tell anyone else.

this is one of those times, it seems.