Okay this is fucking ridiculous. How does my cousin have a hot date for prom and I'm still single. I don't get it.

Days like this are really difficult to cope with. I feel pretty alone.

I know Marshmallow will say some shit about always being there for me, but she can't be. She's got her own issues and she's too young and immature to understand everything I'm facing. She's naive too. Making the same mistake with the same guys or types of guys over and over. She needs to stand up for herself.

I just miss being legitimately wanted, needed, and loved. I miss having a partner in life.

I should start working out I guess.

I'm just tired, right? Things have to get better... they just have to...