Opening doors we should've left closed.

To Wolfgirl:

Please. Please, don't bring up my past failures again...not when i'm having a good day. Please?


It hurts and reopens all those old wounds and doors i tried to lock shut till i knew how to deal with them, but you cut the locks and threw 'em all open letting the monsters back out and they found me there, happy...but they couldn't have that, could they?

They pulled me down and showed me everyone i'd let down...told me how awful of a leader and role model i am for abandoning my friends. I was there to teach them and learn from them.

I won't draw it out, i won't complain, i'll try to keep myself sane, but please don't open the doors i ask you to leave closed. No means no. Let them be. I'll deal with my troubles one day at a time, baby. Not all at once and not on the eve of a good day.

I know you were trying to help. And that's good to want to help, but helping involves listening, and when i said no, you said yes and went ahead and kept talking about things i would've rather left unsaid right then.


No, there's nothing to be upset about, cause i know you can take things personally and feel like you're the cause of it all.

That's not true.  The cause is not at all you, it was the memories that resurfaced unexpectedly that shook me up and made me shut down.


Next time though, please respect me and our bond, and when i say "no", please, just go with it unless it's absolutely necessary for my immediate survival that you keep going. Okay?

Talking things out is the best way to get along, but not when i'm raving mad, hon.

That's a BAD idea. I'll just gurgle up some bitter idiocy. So the best thing is to gently comfort me, but if it's not working, just give some breathing room.

We guys are like that. We sometimes prefer just dealing with our own problems and then returning to the ones we love.

Okay? It'll be alright. I just thought you should know, so you aren't worried or upset all day.